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Why Do Bad Things Happen to Regenerate People?

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 06:35:19 GMT

I think I've finally found a workable starting point for this question! It all ties together: a true understanding of suffering isn't possible without covenant theology and a grasp of both law and gospel.

Are Human Actions and Consequences Connected?

First, we need to address the question of whether people's actions and the subsequent results show a positive feedback, a negative feedback, or little feedback at all.

Without going into great detail (after all, this is a starting point), covenant theology implies that there has to some feedback between our actions and the subsequent results. The cycle of sin followed by judgment, repentance, and then blessing implies that a feedback is present. So does the Fall.

One could argue that Christ's sacrifice on the cross eliminates this feedback, but this would create problems with a covenantal understanding of the relationship between the Old and New Testaments, especially with wisdom literature like Proverbs, and prophetic books like Isaiah and parts of Deuteronomy. And what of church discipline?

The decision-consequence feedback exists, but is it a positive or negative feedback? It would be difficult, again, to reconcile negative feedback with books like Proverbs and Deuteronomy. But it would also be hard to deny that there are periods in our individual lives, as well as periods in history, that demonstrate negative feedback. "I did things God's way and got whacked for it, over and over again!" The church has undergone periods of persecution at many points in its history.

Perhaps we could argue that positive feedback exists once we look at broad averages taken over many individual lives and a long period of time. We could then view periods of negative feedback as corrections in a long-term uptrend. This idea has some merit, as we have a higher standard of living and more tools to preach the gospel than we have had in any other period of history. We also have more tools for Bible study and a more developed theology than any other period of history, a fact that is hard to reconcile with any non-optimistic eschatology.

Job

There is still the question of why periods of negative feedback exist at all. There are examples of negative feedback that exist without any reason that can be observed by us. God tested Job, for example, in order to defend His reputation before an accuser. Job had no idea what was happening, and the explanation was not forthcoming even after the test was over. But note the overall net positive feedback: Job got back all that he had lost and more on top.

Systematic Reasons for Negative Feedback

I think there is also a systematic reason for negative feedback. The periods where this was strongest, such as when the church was persecuted, occurred at low points in the church's influence over the culture around it. At the very point where the church was getting hurt the most for doing the right thing, there was nowhere for the church to go but up in its cultural influence. If we lose hope in periods of negative feedback, we lose our greatest opportunity for the growth of the gospel and the resumption of the long-term uptrend.

But why would there be negative feedback when the church is small and weak? If God's people have been unfaithful, He will discipline us in order to humble us and bring us back to Him. This is part of covenant theology. But it is a positive feedback between actions and consequences. God disciplines us because we have sinned. Why would God cause the faithful remnant of the church to be hurt for doing the right thing at the very moment faith is needed the most?

Part of the answer is, of course, that individual Christians are in covenant with the rest of the community. We live among a people of unclean lips and must take responsibility for the failure of the church at large. When the church stumbles, we are also hurt.

Law and Gospel

However, I am also proposing that part of the answer also lies in the actual mechanism of cultural degeneration. As the church is disciplined and loses influence, we also lose the helpful interplay between law and gospel. Normally, law is present in society as a standard by which God judges us to live faithfully or unfaithfully to Him. It also has the purpose of protecting our freedom by restraining evil, and this is effective where the government is doing its job by enforcing laws that resemble God's own Law, commending those who follow it and punishing those who do not. (Romans 13)

If the church's influence in society temporarily grows weaker, the unregenerate people who dominate the culture change governmental laws and society's unwritten rules to benefit themselves. Now law has been turned on its head. Instead of granting freedom to those who do right and punishing evildoers, the breakers of God's Law are rewarded, and Christian faithfulness is punished. Doing the right thing becomes increasingly painful because there are no consequences to restrain injustice. Christians experience negative feedback because they are covenantally bound to society and experience God's judgment on the people around them.

Is this so hard a conclusion to accept? We easily believe that those who aren't Christians are blessed by the spillover of God's grace when the church increases in its faithful cultural influence, encouraging healthy families, stable money, productivity, and an environment where the gospel (as well as other forms of speech) can spread freely. This is common grace. Why not the converse, where Christians can be hurt by the spillover of God's curse?

The solution to this problem cannot be to enforce law without gospel. When we live in hypocrisy, honoring God with our lips but hating Him in our hearts, God brings us enough trials to break any motivation we would have to adhere to God's Law externally for legalistic reasons. Change comes from regenerate hearts who want to obey God's Law.

Gospel without law is also powerless, since there is no objective standard to keep people from walking all over the church and negating its influence. If our attitude is, "We don't care about law," we will soon be thrown to the lions for uttering those very words. And without Biblical Law, there is no cultural reminder of our sin, and we allow ourselves to create our own law which makes sin and obedience in our own image. This is extraordinarily unhelpful to the gospel, unless you think that definitions of sin which contradict the Bible are conducive to evangelism!

Discussion

This is a starting point for a discussion about the role of suffering in the Christian life. Yes, I could have added Scripture references and footnotes, but the goal here is to start a discussion, not to end it. I want to give us a sounding board to articulate Reformed thinking using new phrases in the hope that we will all understand our suffering better. Let's hear your feedback.

Richard Dawkins: Stumped?

Mon, 09 Mar 2009 02:17:23 GMT

On Friday, I went to a lecture by prominent evolutionist Richard Dawkins. The lecture was called "The Purpose of Purpose," hosted by the University of Oklahoma. This was a large event that has its own Web page on the OU Web site and sizeable Facebook group.

During the Q&A, I asked him a question. I wrote down my question and his answer to the best of my memory that night after the lecture.

Me: Professor, thank you for your explanation of the concepts of flexibility and inflexibility. While I was working on my master's degree, I found that a wide variety of materials I read (in finance, economics, history, philosophy) seem to use similar concepts. All of them reference a book called The Structure of Scientific Revolutions by Thomas Kuhn. He uses the concepts of flexibility and inflexibility to explain how science jumps from one paradigm to another in an inflexible way. He argues that because the ideas and definitions in different paradigms are incommensurable, or philosophically incompatible, science cannot progress toward truth. How would you respond to Kuhn?

Dawkins: Thank you for the comment. I remember reading the book and enjoyed it very much, but I've never thought about how my ideas might connect with his. I'm sorry, but I don't have an answer for you right now.

The crowd applauded after hearing Dawkins' answer. Why did they applaud? Did they realize the enormous implications this has for the validity of science itself?

The Kuhn Project

This is part of my ongoing, informal project to find out how people from various worldviews address Kuhn's ideas. I was expecting to find that no non-Christian worldview would have an adequate answer to Kuhn. What I was not expecting was the very limited degree to which scientists have tried to formulate any answers at all.

I left with a great deal of respect for Dawkins. He's taken the time to read Kuhn, he doesn't have an answer right now, and he's honest enough to admit it.

How NOT to React

Here's an example of how not to react to someone like Dawkins:

During the lecture, someone stood up and screamed "I'm a biologist" in front of a crowd of 3500 booing evolutionists, accused Dawkins of being a fraud, and had to be escorted out of the lecture hall. I think Dawkins handled the situation very graciously.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IYPaNV3q6Jw

If you have trouble viewing the video, click on the "HQ" box near the lower right-hand corner.

If you look carefully in the footage at 1:03, you can see me standing in line, waiting to ask my question. I'm second in line in the grayish-green dress shirt and black slacks.

Rentals in Oklahoma City: LEAP NOW

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 05:52:33 GMT

The bailouts happening today are eventually going to lead to high inflation. Below is an e-mail I sent to the members of our company. It describes a way to profit from inflation.

Rental Properties: A Limited Window of Opportunity

Take a close look at the excerpt by Gary North I've included below. The forecast is stagflation starting in 2010: high interest rates, high inflation, high regulation, and high unemployment.

I'm going to break this down one point at a time. If North is correct about approaching stagflation, this affects our investing strategy.

High interest rates: Low-interest, fixed rate loans will be available for only a short period of time. Getting these loans now and locking in today's interest rate will give us an advantage once rates go up. High inflation will lead to rising property values (in dollars). Rents will rise even faster than property values, increasing the cash flow on rental properties that are purchased and financed today.
High inflation: When this happened in the 1970's, housing prices rose to keep pace with inflation. Property values in Oklahoma City rose faster than inflation because of the oil boom that inflation created. People who bought rental properties early on with fixed-rate, low-interest loans did very well.
High regulation: A greater degree of government control over the secondary market and a greater degree of government ownership may make it harder for investors to get loans in 2010. If this happens, investors who get loans in 2008 and 2009 will have a great advantage.
High unemployment: This will be bad in most parts of the country, but Oklahoma City will not suffer the same problems. Fuel prices will track with inflation, creating an oil and natural gas boom in Oklahoma City. Higher fuel prices will make it harder to import oil, causing us to look more toward domestic production. This is what happened in Oklahoma City from the early 1970's to the early 80's.

For these reasons, 2008 and 2009 will be a great opportunity, perhaps a unique opportunity, to purchase and profit from rental properties and lease options in Oklahoma City. I don't want to discourage the quick-flip strategy, which will work under any economic conditions, but the real opportunity to get rich will be had by paying interest on a 7.4% fixed-rate loan when inflation is running at 8% or more.

One Possible Scenario

If inflation is high and property values in Oklahoma City begin to rise at 15% per year, OKC houses will double in value every 5 years. If we buy an $80,000 house for $50,000 with a nothing-down loan (65% LTV) and the property value increases to $320,000, we can sell the house, pay off the loan, and make $270,000 on a purchase that was made with no money down.

Now think bigger: Buy 6 houses with nothing-down loans and sell one of them after the properties have doubled twice. Sell ONE of the properties, pay off all of the loans, and have 5 properties free and clear.

Think really big: Buy 60 houses, sell off 10, and have 50 free and clear.

I suggest that this is the fastest way to become real estate tycoons without using any of our own cash.

I am going to start moving rapidly toward this acquisition strategy. This is why I moved to Oklahoma City in 2006.

Time to get rich.

Stagflation

Now read an excerpt from Gary North's October 24, 2008 article.

The Federal Reserve System has recently pumped in new reserves at a rate of over 300% per annum. Unbelievable? This comes from the St. Louis Federal Reserve Bank.

http://www.garynorth.com/public/4178.cfm

There are not going to be stable prices in America; there is going to be stagflation on a scale that dwarfs the 1970s.

No matter what the average American has believed about the supposed increase of American stocks of 7% per annum, the reality of the 21st century is that no such rate of return is likely simply by buying an index fund of American stocks and holding until retirement. Inflation will eat up the returns. This assumes that there will be positive returns of 7% per annum. This assumption seems utterly naive to me. There is little evidence for this anymore. The entire decade of the 21st century points to the demolition of that dream. We are not out of the woods yet. The stock market can go down even more between now and the end of this recession.

When will the recession end? The optimists are saying that it will end in late 2009. The pessimists are saying that it will end in late 2010. I am a guarded pessimist. But whenever the recovery comes, it is going to come in a completely new context politically and bureaucratically. It is going to come after a year or more of legislation passed by Democrats in Congress and signed into law, no matter who is elected President in November. The new mantra is this: re-regulation. There is going to be re regulation on a scale that we have not seen since the mid-1970s. That was the era of stagflation.

More Stuff

I've also written previously about peak oil, using rental properties to profit from inflation, and the advantages of living in Oklahoma. Now is the time to get moving.

Christian Education in a Pluralistic Society

Tue, 23 Sep 2008 02:37:00 GMT

I recently answered a question for someone who teaches at the school I used to work at. The answer, given below, briefly fleshes out the application of presuppositional apologetics to education.

I need to ask teachers how they would defend the cause of Christian Education in a pluralistic society. Specifically, if you were asked to speak in front of a pluralistic audience, how will you present a defense for the presence of a Christian School in the community. Why Christian Education for young people?

There is no neutrality. All education approaches life from a certain point of view. Even the person who says that education should be practiced neutrally is (inconsistently) denying the same opportunity to all approaches that assume education should NOT be practiced neutrally.

In principle and in practice, it is impossible for an educator to escape from his own presuppositions, which influence his choices for direction for the school, curricula, teaching methods, grading methods, disciplinary methods, and so forth. Those presuppositions can change, but they are never neutral.

No society can equally express all possible perspectives in education. Since neutrality is impossible and society is finite, we are forced to pick and choose what educational institutions and methods will be allowed. School rules and, more broadly, societal rules, by their very nature discourage certain kinds of actions and encourage others.

The case for Christian education goes beyond this, however. American culture is derived from Puritan roots, a theology that has produced a growing economy and successful society. Puritanism saw Christianity as a force that should influence and define every activity in life, including education.

Because we have left these roots, we are experiencing problems with economic growth and moral standards. Allowing Christian schools to exist gives individual parents the choice to return to a tested model of success for their own families.

Does Theology Matter?

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 02:58:29 GMT

I keep hearing from various people that theology isn't important. Their claim is that theology focuses on intellectual issues that distract us from real life, sort of like debating how many angels can dance on the end of a pin.

My friends are saying these things because they care about the church and about me. They want God's people to continue in their mission unhindered by intellectual baggage.

I understand and appreciate these motivations. However, I can't agree with their claim that theology is unimportant. Theology is a way for us to define our terms and set our goals in a distinctively Christian way. If we do so, we will achieve success as only distinctive Christians can. In fact, that's what I'm talking about when I (in particular) use the term missional. To be missional is to be covenantally successful. I realize that other people will disagree with me, but in order to do so, they have to make a theological case over what is essentially a theological question.

No Avoiding Theology
The true question is not whether we have a theology but which one we hold to, if only unconsciously. Even the question about how many angels can dance on the head of a pin is important.

I've also written about how theology connects such seemingly unrelated concepts as joy and vulnerability. Because it sets the framework for how we understand and connect ideas, a Christian theology creates a distinctively Christian understanding of every subject people learn in school.

Think about this for a minute. Isn't our beef with the public school system the fact that humanism has created a distinctively non-Christian understanding of every subject from biology to government to English? Our problems with government education are really over theological issues. We've allowed secular humanism to define all of the concepts and interconnections between ideas that students study.

As an example, look at how much the concept freedom depends on theological perspective.

Freedom in the Biblical Worldview

In the Biblical worldview, man was created to serve God. When we fell away, we turned from God to idols, but our servant nature wasn't wiped out. Instead of serving righteousness, we served sin. This reversal was complete in principle, since no one can serve two masters.

True freedom is therefore found in turning back to God and serving him. To love God is to obey His commands, and to know that we love others is to love God and obey His commands.

God's Law gives freedom, in spite of everyone who says that freedom is to be released from the Law. We are released from the requirement of the Law for our salvation and set free to walk in good works which stem from, but are not responsible for, our salvation.

A free society, in Biblical terms, is one in which we are under God's Law. Since we are servants by nature, if we are not ruled by God's Law, we will serve an ungodly ruler. Ungodly rulers grant us not freedom, but slavery.

Freedom in Other Theologies

Consider the Buddhist theology in the movie Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon. The characters in the movie are all trying to rid themselves of their attachments in this life in order to achieve true freedom. Mu-bai and Shu-Lien struggle with their romantic attachment to each other, realizing that this is keeping them from being free. Jen runs away from one life situation after anothing, constantly breaking rules in an attempt to break free from dependence on other people. In the end, Jen commits suicide rather than to allow Lo to love her.

The result is consistent with what the Bible teaches: freedom apart from service to God is in fact slavery to another master and is only counterfeit freedom.

Stargate SG-1 is an epic tale about freedom from aliens posing as gods that enslave humans all over the galaxy. The mission of the humans on Earth is to destroy the false gods, which will bring freedom to the galaxy. Their concept of freedom runs into a snag when they rescue a woman named Linea. They realize after setting her free that she was responsible for creating a plague virus that killed half of the people living on her planet. They realize too late that they could have kept her imprisoned in order to save millions of lives.

In order to give the galaxy freedom, the humans on Earth would have had to enslave Linea and hold her captive. They would have taken the place of God in order to maintain order in the universe. They would have become Hobbes' Leviathan, the dictator that would maintain peace by controlling society.

That's the same problem that communism and liberation theology have. In their attempts to free people from horrible dictators, they've placed the same people under the control of a large and tyrannical state. Society is built on servanthood. If men will not serve God, they will serve each other to the point of their own destruction.

What about The Matrix? Freedom seems to be a simple concept in the beginning of the movie: liberation from the machines that control people's minds. The main character, Neo, is the prophesied superhero who will defeat the machines and release people from their grasp. Halfway through the movie, he starts to realize that there is a fundamental tension between his concept of freedom and the optimism of a prophecy that cannot be defeated. If Neo's victory over the machines is the result of a prophecy, is Neo really free to make any choices that would invalidate that prophecy? How is a man truly free if his choices were determined by a prophecy that was made before he was born?

This is the same problem that causes many Arminians to become open theists. Open theists realize that their concept of man's freedom is not compatible with the fact that God knew all of history before any of us were born. Instead of letting go of their definition of freedom, they have chosen to say that God is not all-knowing when it comes to future events.

Tyranny?

Would a society ruled by God's Law be tyrannical? I've addressed that question here. Anyone who wants to disagree would have to re-define freedom as something other than societal obedience to God's Law. Because this would be a theological argument, to disagree with me here would be to concede the point that theology is in fact important.

Theology is so important that where it touches one concept, human freedom, it influences what country we want to live in, how we'll vote, our reactions in situations where we feel people are controlling us, and even whether we believe God is all-knowing.

Whatever happens, I hope never to live in a society where we have forgotten theology, and by extension, forgotten whom we were made to serve. May God rule in our lives forever.

Cinderella

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 21:49:57 GMT

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
Because I know something the prince never knew
I will dance with Cinderella
I don't wanna miss even one song,
Because all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone.

Happy Fathers' Day.

Tax-Funded Muslim K-8 School in Minnesota Reveals Minnesotans' Tax Dollars at Work

Sun, 18 May 2008 03:15:15 GMT

Article by Gary North
April 10, 2008

This story appeared in the Minneapolis-St. Paul Star Tribune (April 9): "Wall of silence broken at state's Muslim public school."

The school is a tax-funded charter school.

These schools are not supposed to teach religion (it says here). But every system of knowledge rests on presuppositions about God, man, law, causation, and time. The war for control over who controls the answers to these five crucial issues has been going on ever since the first tax-funded school was begun.

The school in question

shares the headquarters building of the Muslim American Society of Minnesota, whose mission is "establishing Islam in Minnesota." The building also houses a mosque. TIZA's executive director, Asad Zaman, is a Muslim imam, or religious leader, and its sponsor is an organization called Islamic Relief.

Students pray daily, the cafeteria serves halal food - permissible under Islamic law -- and "Islamic Studies" is offered at the end of the school day.

In the bad old days -- the 1950s -- conservatives were laughed at by liberals for their view of Communist infiltration. Conservatives said, "If it walks like a duck and quacks like a duck, it's a duck." I think the old slogan applies.

Zaman maintains that TIZA is not a religious school. He declined, however, to allow me to visit the school to see for myself, "due to the hectic schedule for statewide testing." But after I e-mailed him that the Minnesota Department of Education had told me that testing would not begin for several weeks, Zaman did not respond -- even to urgent calls and e-mails seeking comment before my first column on TIZA.

The story goes on to report that an eyewitness saw obvious Islamic prayers and activities on a high holy day.

If this were a Christian charter school, the ACLU would have it in court today.

Conclusion: Neutrality is enforced unneutrally.

Forward this to a friend. This story deserves wide coverage.

The Giant That Ate Evangelicalism

Fri, 09 May 2008 22:28:07 GMT

Once upon a time, there was a young man named Andrew. While journeying through the fields of Farmer Hick along the North West High Way in the distant land of Pied Mont, Andrew discovered a Great Beanstalk. Andrew scaled the Stalk and discovered Green the Giant, who shouted, "I gonna eat you Village, me and me Children both. Give me it!"

Andrew, being by nature God-fearing and giant-fearing as well, scampered down the Beanstalk to warn his neighbors.

He said to his neighbors, "Green the Giant is coming to eat this town. We must warn everyone in the Village!"

"No such thing has ever happened in the history of this village," they replied. "How have you, the Village child, come to hear of it?"

"I have scaled the Great Beanstalk, dear neighbors. I have journeyed far through the land of Farmer Hick to discover this secret. I know more of Mr. Giant's devious plans than any of you could care to imagine."

"Do you suppose that having travelled through the fields of Mr. Hick suddenly maketh you into our teacher? What a precocious young boy you think you are!"

"But any of you come learn the same thing if you would only journey with me to the Great Beanstalk. You could meet Mr. Giant yourselves!"

"You are not qualified to be our teacher, and we are too busy to find the truth for ourselves. If you wish to speak of such things, you must obtain the consent of the Village Elders."

The Village Elders

So our good friend Andrew travelled far to seek the counsel of the Village Elders, east of the Lake which is called Hefner. Upon his arrival, he was admitted to the Board Room, the Table of which is legendary among all Committees and Governments of the Kingdom.

The Village Elders said to Andrew, "We thank you for bringing this Hypothetical Disaster to our attention. Unfortunately, the Village is not ready at this time to address the Potential Threat of Mr. Giant. We wish to further review the evidence available to us, as we believe that the topic warrants Further Study."

"How long do you think Further Study will take?" asked Andrew.

"We do not know. We shall conduct a Preliminary Study to determine the amount of time which is necessary to conduct a Further Study."

"And when will the Preliminary Study begin?"

"Due to the lack of resources available to us, the Preliminary Study will be tabled until such time as it becomes evident that the Threat is upon us."

"But how will you recognize the Threat unless you conduct your Further Study first? And how will you find enough time to warn people? Will they have time to prepare for a journey to a distant land, perhaps the land of Still Water?"

"These questions will be addressed in the Further Study."

"But surely you have a Moral Responsibility to conduct the Studies as soon as possible so that the people of the Village may be trained and prepared for the coming Crisis. Is this not true?"

"Brother Andrew, it is Highly Judgmental for you to tell us that we have these Responsibilities when we do not have the time or resources available to address them. We are unwilling at this time to divert those resources from other Important Tasks. In fact, we strongly discourage you from raising Further Panic among the people. Go now to your own house and make your preparations privately."

Andrew Tries Again

And so Andrew returned to his home to make preparations as he had been instructed. His attempts to mobilize the people and to address the Village Elders had failed, so he purposed in his heart to build a Super Weapon that would destroy Green the Giant forever.

Unfortunately, he found that no one would assist him in the construction of the Super Weapon. The Buzz Around the Water Cooler was not loud enough for the Threat to be taken seriously. No one else discovered the Great Beanstalk or spoke with Green the Giant.

A few years later, Green the Giant came upon the Village with his Children, Post Modernism, Dispens Ationalism, Rap Tour Fever, Eagle It Arianism, Hume Anism, Knee O. Orthodoxy, and Kanes E. Anism.

They destroyed the Village, feeding on the neighbors of Andrew and driving the Elders into hiding in the land of Nor Man. Green the Giant claimed the land of the Village for himself and took residence in the nearby stronghold of Nick Ol's Hills.

Brother Andrew never completed the Super Weapon but has continued ever since to plot the destruction of the Giant brood. Legend has it that he lives to this day in the flood plains of Guth Ree.

The End.

What You Can't Have for Christmas

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 08:34:39 GMT

I've been writing entries about intimacy because I believe there's a real connection between intimacy and "higher" theological concepts such as atonement, justification, and sanctification. Having one helps us understand the other and vice versa.

Intimacy involves breaking down walls and letting people into our lives. But I'm beginning to think that this isn't always possible. Could it be true that some walls are there for the protection of the body, because inside those walls sits a dangerous weapon that could annihilate parts of God's city which aren't ready for it yet? I can't help but think of the electric fence from the novel "A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur's Court." Knight after knight piled up at the foot of the fence because they were dressed in the perfect conductor.

Imagine this conversation.

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Dude: What're ya thinking?

Me: Dude, I think I just heard a sprinkling of dispensational premillenialism in our sermon this morning. And in the one before that. And in the one before that one, too.

Dude: You know, you really have to stop worrying so much about theology. It really doesn't matter too much.

Me: Dude, you're not even going to ask me whether the sermon this morning was unbiblical? Or about the implications of dispensational premillenialism, which would be the destruction of family, church, and nation, which is already happening today? You're just going to tell me that theology doesn't matter, even though that is a self-contradictory statement because the claim that theology doesn't matter is itself a theological claim?

Dude: Why are you causing all this unnecessary conflict?

Me: The destruction of family, church, and nation is not important enough to warrant causing a bit of conflict after a Sunday sermon which contained unbiblical theology?

Dude: Well, the way you're saying it is so, um, mean.

Me: But look at the way you react when I say it in a way that's not mean. "Oh, that's very nice. You have your view and I have mine, but they're equally valid. Or if they're not equally valid, they're abstract theological opinions that distract us from the mission of the church."

Dude: But they are abstract and distracting.

Me: Yes, and you believe that so strongly that I have to sound mean to get my point across.

Dude: Well, I wish you simply wouldn't share your point of view, then.

Me: Yeah, I kind of wish I hadn't either. I agree that it wasn't the most loving thing in the world to do. James says something about bridling my tongue and horses. I don't really want to be a horse. At least not a wild one. May I ask for your forgiveness?

Dude: You have it. Thank you for being honest with me.

Me: Thank you for showing God's grace to me. And I'm glad that I was honest with you. I know that in the future, I should not be so honest with you to START.
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In light of all of this, perhaps I should qualify my previous posts. I should say something like, "There are different levels and types of intimacy, each of which is reserved for a certain type of person." I think I can justify that Biblically, but I'm too exhausted to try right now.

But one thing you can't have this Christmas is my heart. Not all of it, anyway. That's because I love you and want to protect you.

On the other hand, if you know what dispensational premillenialism is, let's talk. :P

Hit me back with some comments so I won't think I'm crazy - or maybe so I will. Merry Christ-mas.

Run Away Screaming

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 02:32:41 GMT

Are you sometimes scared to show people who you really are because you're afraid that they won't accept you and even that they'll run away?

That is who I am. God has used some events in my life to show me that I'm not strong enough to tackle life on my own. I need other people. I need to stop hiding behind a made-up face of total strength and confidence.

There's nothing wrong with strength and confidence. But we develop those characteristics through weakness and suffering. We must face our true selves, our weak and sinful selves, and learn to draw strength from God and the people He's put around us.

I have made too many excuses for my poor decisions. Some of them have been the result of sin; others, a lack of wisdom. By staring into my true self and acknowledging my real strengths and weaknesses, I'm in a position to be changed so I can serve God better.

Now I understand more than ever why Adam and Eve would be ashamed at their nakedness. I understand why they would hide from God in the garden.

I have real dreams and ambitions. I've made real mistakes and seen true victories. Yet I hide all that away because I realize that I'm not strong enough of a person to make everything happen the way I want it. I'm as helpless as the newborn infant in his mother's arms, as vulnerable to hurt and rejection as one who will someday give his body away, trusting fully that he will be loved in sickness and in health.

For all the barriers I try to put up, God sees me like the emperor in his new clothes. But instead of laughing at me, He clothes me in righteousness. And I will someday stand before Him in glory, covered by Christ's sacrifice, unashamed.

Until then, it's all too easy to hide from my real self. I am tempted to run away screaming. Only the gospel can give us hope. May we live in the light of the cross always.

Engywook:
Nonsense ! You don't understand anything! The worst one is coming up. Next is the Magic Mirror gate. Atreyu has to face his true self.

Falkor:
So what ? That won't be too hard for him.

Engywook:
Oh ! That's what everyone thinks. But kind people find that they are cruel, brave men discover that they are really cowards. Confronted with their true selves most men run away screaming!

Watch what happens then: Atreyu and the Mirror
http://www.neverendingstory.com/mpegs/theymeet.mpeg

Search me, O God, and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there be any hurtful way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. (Psalm 139:23-24)